Tuesday, July 14, 2009

hana pestle - "need"

I'm not quite sure how to breathe without you here
I'm not quite sure if I'm ready to say goodbye to all we were
Be with me
Stay with me
Just for now
Let the time decide
When I won't need you

My hand searches for your hand
In a dark room
I can't find you
Help me
Are you looking for me?
Can I feel anyore?
Lie to me, I'm fading
I can't drop you
Tell me, I don't need you

My hand searches for your hand
In a dark room
I can't find you
Help me
Are you looking for me?
Etch this into my brain for me
Tell me, how it's supposed to be
Where everything will go
And how I'll be without you by my side
My hand searches for your hand
In a dark room
I can't find you
Help me
Are you looking for me?
My hand searches for your hand
In a dark room
I can't find you
Help me
Are you looking for me?

Sunday, June 21, 2009

one day at a time

i think i need to remember to take things one day at a time. seriously. everything happens in good time. everything.

i loooooooooooooooove my new car. :)

ok, sytycd better be good this week. last week wasn't stellar, and i only loved two routines... the waltz and the contemporary.

Thursday, May 15, 2008

boggles the mind

Politico.com Interview with George Bush

(Olbermann’s closing is what I felt was so compelling that it was worth typing it out verbatim. That preceding the closing was interesting so I typed some of it.)

Yahoo user: If we were to pull out of Iraq next year, what’s the worst that could happen, what’s the doomsday scenario?

Bush: “Doomsday scenario of course is that extremists throughout the Middle East would be emboldened, which would eventually lead to another attack on the United States. The biggest issue we face is -- it’s bigger than Iraq -- it’s this ideological struggle against cold-blooded killers who will kill people to achieve their political objectives…. Iraq is where al Qaeda and other extremists have made their stand -- and they will be defeated.”

Yahoo user: Do you feel, that you were misled on Iraq?

Bush: “I feel like -- I felt like, there were weapons of mass destruction. You know, “mislead” is a strong word, it almost connotes some kind of intentional -- I don’t think so, I think there was a -- not only our intelligence community, but intelligence communities all across the world shared the same assessment. And so I was disappointed to see how flawed our intelligence was.”

(Um… didn’t intelligence show there were no weapons of mass destruction there?)

Yahoo user: And so you feel that you didn’t have all the info you should have or the right spin on that information?”

Bush: “No, no I was told by people that they had weapons of mass destruction, as were members of Congress, who voted for the resolution to get rid of Saddam Hussein. And of course, the political heat gets on, and they start to run and try to hide from their votes.”

(Um… what people? And really? Congress voted based on false information Bush RE-submitted.)

Yahoo user: Mr. President, you haven’t been golfing in recent years, is that related to Iraq?

Bush: “Yes, it really is. I don’t want some mom whose son may have recently died to see the Commander-in-Chief playing golf. I feel I owe it to the families to be as -- to be in solidarity as best I can with them. And I think playing golf during a war just sends the wrong signal.”

Olbermann: “Golf, sir. Golf sends the wrong signal to the grieving families butchered in Iraq. Do you think these families, Mr. Bush, their lives blighted forever, care about you playing golf? Do you think, sir, they care about you, you who let their sons & daughters be killed? Sir, to show your solidarity with them you gave up golf? Sir, to show your solidarity with them, you didn’t give up your pursuit of this insurance scam, profiteering, morally, and financially bankrupting war? Sir, to show your solidarity with them, you didn’t even give up talking about Iraq, a subject about which you have incessantly proved without pause or backward glance, that you may literally be the least informed person in the world. Sir, to show your solidarity with them you didn’t give up your presidency. In your own words, solidarity, as best as I can, is to stop a game. That is the best you can? 4,000 Americans give up their lives and your sacrifice is to give up golf? Golf, and still it gets worse. Because it proves that the President’s unendurable sacrifice, his unbearable pain, the suspension of getting to hit a stick and ball together, was not even his own damned idea.”

Yahoo user: Mr. President, was there a particular moment or incident that brought you to that decision, or how did you come to that?

Bush: “I remember when de Mello, who was at the U.N., got killed in Baghdad as a result of these murderers taking this good man’s life, and I was playing golf -- I think I was in Central Texas-- and they pulled me off the golf course and I said, it’s just not worth it anymore to do.”

Olbermann: “Your one tone deaf, arrogant, pathetic, embarrassing gesture and you didn’t even think of it yourself. The great Bushian sacrifice -- an army private loses his leg, a marine loses half of his skull, 4,000 of their brothers and sisters lose their lives-- you lose golf, and they have to pull you off the golf course to get you to do just that, if it’s even true. Apart from your medical files, which dutifully record your torn calf muscle and the knee pain which force you to give up running at the same time --coincidence, no doubt-- the bombing in Baghdad which killed Sergio Vieira de Mello of the U.N. , and interrupted your round of golf was on August 19, 2003, and yet there’s an AP account of you and photographs playing golf as late as Columbus Day of that year, October 13th, nearly two months later. Mr. Bush, I hate to break it to you, six and a half years after you yoked this nation, and your place in history to the wrong war, in the wrong place, against the wrong people, but the war in Iraq is not about you. It is not, Mr. Bush, about your grief when American after American comes home in a box. It is not, Mr. Bush, about what your adult brain has produced in the way of paranoid delusions of risks that do not exist, ready to be activated if some Democrat, and not your twin, Mr. McCain succeeds you. The war in Iraq, your war Mr. Bush, is about how you accomplished the derangement of two nations, and how you helped funnel billions of tax payer dollars to lascivious and perennially thirsty corporations like Haliburton and Blackwater, and how you sent 4,000 Americans to their deaths for nothing! It is not, Mr. Bush, about your golf game…. And sir, if you have any hopes that next January 24th will not be celebrated as a day of soul wrenching heartfelt thanksgiving because your faithless stewardship of this presidency will have finally come to a merciful end, this last piece of advice: when somebody asks you, sir, about Democrats who must now pull this country back from the abyss you have placed us at, when somebody asks you, sir, about the cooked books and faked threats you foisted on a sincere and frightened nation, when somebody asks you, sir, about your gallant, noble, self abnegating sacrifice of your golf game so as to soothe the families of the war dead, this advice, Mr. Bush, shut the hell up!”

(you tell 'em, Mr. Olbermann)



Monday, April 21, 2008

kinda lost

there are so many things going on right now. it's kind of tiring. i feel like i'm doing so much but accomplishing nothing. i hate that feeling.

Thursday, April 03, 2008

ATA Bankrupt!!

just great... ATA declared bankruptcy... and wouldn't you know that the ticket i booked for hawaii is through ATA? i have to try to get my money back through my credit card company, and now i have to try and find a good rate and flight. BOOOOOOOOOOOOOO on ATA and thus SOUTH-freakin-WEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, March 16, 2008

planned yet random weekend

i went to vegas this weekend!

mina picked me up friday night, and we went to her place to freshen up and head out. we decided on cathouse because the last time i was here, we didn't get to eat dinner there, only red velvet cake. so this time, we were going to eat dinner AND eat red velvet cake. we valet and the guy asks if we're going to LAX, and we said, "no, we're going to cathouse!" and he says, "oh... that place is closed. the 2nd floor was falling in so they won't be open for another 4-6 weeks." we were so bummed because we were so set on having that! ok, so that was STRIKE ONE!

we were trying to think of where to go next... then mina says, let's go to the palazzo to have crepes, and i say ok! now we're settled on what to do. it's obvious we had dessert on our minds! well, we get to the crepes place, mina orders, and the guy says, "we don't make crepes after 10 pm." it was 10:30. WHAT?!?! it's VEGAS! nothing is supposed to close early!!! that was STRIKE TWO! we went to a bunch of different restaurants, and we either didn't see any dessert we liked or the places that did have potential dessert were closed!

we were all bummed so we walked toward the venetian shops, and came to this italian restaurant, canaletto. we looked at the menu, and mina said, "ok! let's eat here!" we had some chocolate mousse thing and zabaglioni. the zabaglioni was YUM! while we were there we realized that the time was close to 12 am so we could eat meat soon. we thought about it, and wanted pinks hot dogs with chili. well, we couldn't figure where it was so we called jay but he didn't answer his phone. then we call dorothy but she didn't know. then we called my roommate and he told us it was in planet hollywood, and he gives us the number. well, as it would turn out, they closed pinks, and their hot dogs are only offered through room service. STRIKE THREE!!! then mina suggests raffles because she knows that place is open for sure. we drove back over to mandalay bay, and what's funny is that freaking mina says as we drive up "watch, it's full."
wouldn't you know it was full!!! (there was a fight at mandalay that night). STRIKE FOUR!!!

we end up valeting on the other side of the casino, and as we're walking in, this short little guy introduces himself as joe, and asks if we want to go to mix. he said he'd get us in for free, and there'd be no waiting. we looked at each other, shrugged, and said, "sure." as we're riding up the elevator (it's on the 61st floor), this really tall guy is in there, and mina and i both thought he was either the elevator man or a tour guide to these foreigners that were in the elevator with us. turns out, he was just a guy going to mix. he (william) ended up buying us drinks while we were there. the crowd at mix is older, and a little weird. anyway, as we're dancing he comes over and says he's going to LAX, and asks if we want to go, too. we shrugged, and said, sure! we got in easily enough and got free drinks, again (sweet!) b/c his friend is a manager there. we ended up dancing until a little after 3.

then... we decide to finally go to raffles, and we decide to rest our feet for a minute. while we're sitting a girl approached mina. turns out, they went to h.s. together. apparently, mina looks the same now as she did when she was 18.

we were going to wake up at 8 am to go down to primm to shop. well, we... or actually i, didn't wake up until later. we got ready, ate at nordstrom cafe (yummy!), and then went shopping at the mall. sunday we ended up going to primm but we were late that morning, too... i didn't get up 'til later.

what a greeeeeeeeeeat weekend!!! if i could have more like this, that would be awesome!

Friday, February 29, 2008

hope

my america
your america
our america


"we are not as divided as our politics suggest. we are one people. we are one nation. and together we will begin the next great chapter in the american story with three words that will ring from coast to coast from sea to shining sea... yes, we can!!!!"

my vote is for hope, unity, and change. my vote is for obama.