why am i weird?
well, i think i'm weird. or maybe i'm normal? hmm... perhaps no comment on that would be best. the thing is, i have not been insecure in past relationships. i'm not saying i'm insecure in this one... or am i? it's just that things affect me differently. for instance, sunday night he said he'd see me on monday. well, as the day went on, it became a bit obvious he wasn't going to make it down. i got truly downright disappointed to the point where i was in a "blah" mood for the entirety of the day. i didn't go to work yesterday. i was supposed to do something but i didn't even do that. weird, huh?
anyway, the weekend was great but busy. friday night i saw wicked with linden. he doesn't like musicals but has never seen one so he said he'd give it a shot. turns out he liked it. wicked is probably one of the best musicals to start someone on. saturday we met up with my friend for coffee and then went to kay's couple's shower. after that we went to jay's birthday at the highlands. talk about crowded. i got totally buzzed. sunday, we drove home to his place in the valley to drop him off and then i went home to see my mom. busy busy.
miserably unhappy yet deliriously happy
mark sent me this quote which i think is awesome. i want to post it at work because it's so relevant to mi jefe. no doubt he would not understand it... "There is nothing so useless as doing efficiently that which should not be done at all." - peter f druckeri think cicely has a quote on her page from him too. who is this guy? i looked him up on wikipedia. some crazy smart business dude. anyway, good quote peter!ok... miserably unhappy because of work. i am seriously miserable. i want to move on and yet can't because i haven't found a new job. granted, i've not been very active in my search but gracious, how many resumes can a person send out?! i have one promising lead and i've applied to another job for which i believe i have a decent shot. i'll follow up on this week. BUT i'm deliriously happy because of linden. this despite a ridiculous fight (which i started) this past weekend. lame of me but it happened. we learn from it and move on. thank God linden is the way he is. any normal, sane individual would ditch me. however, he's apparently not normal nor is he sane!i worked out for the first time in who knows how long last night. i only did the 30 minute video of billy blanks's cardio bootcamp. don't laugh. don't snicker. he knows what he's doing and those videos really whip you into shape. i was going to go for the 50 minute video but it was a good thing i didn't have time. i woulda been pooped! the 30 minute workout left me breathless. i think tonight i'll try to do the 30 minute workout, again and go to the gym for some cardio. i love harry potter!!! i'm so sad it's over. hmm... so when i reserved my copy of harry potter at borders, the guy asked if i wanted a "friend" or "foe" sticker for snape. i chose friend. was i wrong? oh, and webcams are frickin sweet!!!
mind games
why are there times that we worry so much about the future that we forget to live in the present? i try not to worry and for the most part am successful. what do you want someone else to enjoy the moment?
this was an incredibly busy weekend but i had a great time. i got to spend time with linden and yet, it wasn't enough. i don't suppose it will ever be enough while he's living so far away. we got the chance to: go to a dodger game, dinner with my parents, hangout with his cousins and friends, go to church with his dad, and go to chris & iya's wedding shower (turns out he recognized a few of the guys... chris, jay, glenn, and henry). 16 more days until i see him, again. :(
